Keep it Together

by Sean Lenox

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04:58
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05:49
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05:12
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07:57

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Written and recorded in the first half of 2013, "Keep it Together" might be the darkest album I ever made. After my 2012 release of the safe, poppy "Pause For Effect" album, I felt like digging into the darker, weirder recesses of my mind to create more experimental music. At this point, my good friend Steve's musical tastes were starting to rub off on me, and I was starting to develop a profound appreciation for experimental, strange, and ugly music (Steve and I would later make such music together as Flitter).

After playing with some new synthesizers and discovering my love for electric piano, college exams crept up on me and my computer's hard drive got destroyed. Stress began to fray me at the edges and I couldn't stay awake in class. I finally released "Keep it Together" at the end of May as I came out of this tumultuous state.

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released May 26, 2013

Vocals, & Instrument Programming: Sean Lenox
Mixed and produced in Acoustica Mixcraft 6.
Virtual bass programmed with 4Front Bass.
The SQ8L virtual synthesizer is used on tracks 1, 2, and 6.

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Track Name: Shelf Patrol
Hold me in
With your breath
Hold me in
If it suits your pleasure
I have been
Engaging in something
Hold me in
The clarion call is here for something
One more time
Maybe you should let him in
With your breath
For a beggar's opportunity
Hold me in
You think it's easy

Give me a sign that you were never there
It's not like I can't take it
Maybe with the right shoes
You can run from my question

The melting pot is boiling
I think you need a different pan

Here it comes with the strength of a thousand laces
Maybe it's for the best
If you told me I would have to waste it
I would tell you that I'd eat your face

Hold me in
Press your hands against me now
One more time
To hold back the tide
With your breath
You can start a counterrevolution
Hold me in
If you dare
Track Name: A Letter to My Love
A letter to my love on the cusp of disaster
Forget about those stupid things I would ask her
all of that just seems so pointless, now

If you kneel down to the ground and get close
Press your ear up against the coast
You can hear those load bearers coming down

Oh, my love
Oh what have we done
This ground is shaking and giving way
To the lives that we live every day

I'm filling my head with short-term leases
Building my puzzles with broken pieces
Filled with desperation and despair

Forsaking my soul to follow my heart
to make some silly music or art
a lot of good these words will do us there

Oh, my love
Oh what have we done
These old foundations can't resist
these apathetic messages

I never thought our lives would be so expendable
I cannot realize that now can we just pretend just like
we've always done, just like we've always done
we've got our whole lives to have fun

A letter to my love and guilty friend
We can't take all the blame in the end
but maybe that's what everybody fears

They say that anyone can stand alone and make a difference
well I've been here waiting for that one for years

Oh, my love
Oh what can we do
See it looming closer now
Just take one off and pass it down

I never thought our lives would be so expendable
I cannot realize that now can we just pretend just like
we've always done, just like we've always done
we've got our whole lives to have fun

Maybe a thousand years from now they're looking back and thinking
There was nothing anyone could do to stop this ship from sinking
destiny, it was our destiny
so let's just close our eyes and breathe
Track Name: Relativity
Bearing down and holding fast
with the picture changing in a flash
I'd say I need no others
still beholding those

Another year has passed
so appropriately fast
How can I not recognize
These lights have only grown in size

The Earth is stretching on an on as far as I can see
Emotion takes a hold as she says just hold on to me
My quiet life of little things and tight security
All shattered in an instant of this relativity

Ironically it seems that life has never been so safe
In spite of everything we've done and what she's made me crave
In moonlight we discuss our deepest thoughts and doubts and fears
Telling her what crippled me for all these lonesome years

The Earth is stretching on an on as far as I can see
Emotion takes a hold as she says just hold on to me
My quiet life of little things and tight security
All shattered in an instant of this relativity

I've spent my life lying in wait and watching for the weather
Come with me and you will see that we'll fly off together

Locked inside my worry cage the shadows paint the walls
But I can hear my heart again as color fills the halls
Iron melts and blinding lights will take me by the hand
And as we fly away I think it's time to live again
Track Name: Julius Caesar's Majestic Cathedrals
I've got to get some sleep 'cause I'm so nervous
I feel like I'm in here without a purpose
The writing on the wall is pertinent
But my energy is somehow spent

I don't know why my body has betrayed me
In some warmer place someone has laid me
Maybe if I try

Shake and hold my eyes
Knowledge sacrificed
I refuse to learn
Will it last forever?
Shake me from my sleep
I have words to keep
My never or will ever is forever

It's fruitless 'cause my body always wins
Stack the deck before the game begins
Losing sight and falling out of mind
Looking for a wall to hide behind

I'm sorry but I try my best, why can't I be like all the rest
They seem to have complete control and dance in time around the hole
The hole is growing ever-deep, cathedrals with their secrets keep
If I keep them

Shake and hold my eyes
Knowledge sacrificed
I refuse to learn
Will it last forever?
Shake me from my sleep
I have words to keep
My never or will ever is forever

I've got to get some sleep
Running from cathedrals and their glycerine embraces
Maybe if they hang my feet my eyes will never shut
Hanging from the safer cathedrals

As I walk away I think of rubies that I missed
My sight has found a habit that my body can't resist
It's only natural to close my eyes to my mistakes
But I could kill it all if I could keep myself awake, oh if only
Track Name: Løsne
Life is cold, and life is good
My family is here
Not a soul misunderstood
Not an enemy to fear

But it could always use some help
A little piece of mind
So today I start my travels
And good fortune I will find

Riding on
'cross the sea
Hoping the sun will
shine on me
My family
patiently waits
for this lost soul to find his way

A misstep, a false start
But I won't let my plans fall apart
You can't expect life to hold your hand
But is it too much to wish to understand?
Forget everything, I think I made my way
I got a job pinned down and helped my family today
I feel a pain inside when I think of home
I can't wait to leave these foreign lands I roam

Received a letter
from my home
They've moved away
Thought I should know
They've left me here
to find my way
Maybe we could write again some day

Stake my claim
Change my name
Nothing will ever
be the same
Cast aside
A second thought
Maybe I'll go back someday
or maybe not
Track Name: Nightmad
Sitting in a diner
Plate is full
Bloodshot eyes
Some old fool in the corner
Eyes me with distrust

I don't need him
Or anyone
I'm all fed up
and soon the sun will be rising
Another sleepless night

It's the only way
to keep them away
One more coffee down
to keep me awake

I don't need no doctor
I don't need no sleep
Why would I open the door
and let in all these bad dreams, tell me

What did I do wrong?
How can I go on?

These streetlines taunt me
Eyelids heavy, coming down
But I'm still smiling
'Cause I know what to do, now

I'll lay down in bed
With a nice and empty head
Oh, I'm on to something
I'm just stalling the tide with tungsten

Stalling the tide
Deep inside
Righting the wrong
Won't be long
I gave you everything you need
And when night comes you rattle me
But I don't need you to be happy

Doing the research
All alone
in the glow
of this old hat computer
As the dawn breaks

It's very simple
Find the source
Take it out
No remorse for that weasel
I gave him so many chances

Get the bad thoughts out
To turn it around
Lose a little memory
makes sense to me

Stores will open soon
Get in and start the car
I don't need no doctor
to come and charge me all this money

One mile
Then two
Pull up
Here we are

Walk through that door
Got the money to take the charge

All these aisles welcome me
The perfect scalpel
For a small fee

It can't be that hard
Won't have to cut that far
A good night's sleep is coming
I'm just stalling the tide with tungsten

Stalling the tide
Genocide
Desperate times
Dirty minds
I live my life happy and proud
And look just where it got you now
Well now it's time to cut it out

Novice hands grip tight the knife
Everything will be alright
Lay down on this bed of red
Close your eyes and clear your head

The night comes with a soft and pleasant darkness
That wasn't so hard
I always knew it was so simple
A chill flows from my temples to my fingertips
I've never felt so alive and holy

Only the best and brightest finely tuned degrees will follow
Sunrise over feather fields like the lonely lake to swallow
If those nightlies gather in some dustbin far away to the mind
Just follow Caesar's hallways filled with tungsten